But Seriously What Are You Afraid Of?
Im trying to figure out why deciding on life is hard. Why making forward-moving decisions are the scariest. Why cant we just look at something and go, Yep, this is it, today my life is going to be turned 360. Is it because were afraid of what people will think? Are we scared of failure? Are we scared that its not going to be what we want it to be?
Maybe I should look in the mirror and ask myself these questions.
The past few months, Ive been in a weird spot in my life where I question almost everything I do. Only just a year ago, Id get up and go — no questions asked.
Now, I feel a million different emotions running over me, and trying to dissect them is, mentally, the hardest thing Ive done.
Im a pretty spiritual person. I believe that if you put your heart to it, trust God, and do everything for his glory, hes always going to be in your favor.
So why am I so hesitant now? Why cant I just take the leap?
Im not even talking about the trail. Ive never been so excited and so ready to be anywhere in my life.
But you know what I think it is thats sucking me in? Thats making me crave the trail more than ever?
Its the freedom. The freedom to get away from my cluttered mind for a bit. The freedom to not answer to anyone but myself. I dont have to explain why I am or why Im not doing something. I dont even have to pretend that I know what Im doing (which is 98 percent of my life, ha ha).
I have big decisions I need to make in my life and I just cant seem to get my footing.
Its All About Perspective
Just two days ago, I heard story after story of these freak accidents that left people as amputees, that left people jobless, that almost ended lives. And guess what? Every single person was so blessed for everything that had happened. They had something so scary happen to them and they turned it into something so beautiful.
These people were all in situations that they mentally couldnt leave (mostly work related). They were scared to take that first step to happiness; they didnt want to make the change. All of these injuries and close calls made them wake up and changed their lives for the better. They walked away from their jobs and they pushed for what they wanted life to be.
How amazing is that?
My Point
Moral of the story, why wait? Why keep pushing something off just because people are telling you to? Why keep pushing things off because youre afraid?
Whether its starting a new career path, driving across the country, running a marathon, or heck, even hiking the AT. Whats stopping you?
I hope that what you take away from this is that you dont keep putting off your goals. That you dont keep brushing aside that dream youve been wanting to fulfill just because someone or something is telling you otherwise.
Im 2.5 months away from this journey of mine and I cant wait.
Happy hiking!
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